Depression Won’t Beat Me

9 Apr

I’ve been reading posts and articles about depression.  Yes I fight it and I won’t let it conquer me.  I will keep fighting it and keep going especially when I have the energy to     do things.     That’s when I know I am winning.  Yes there are bad days when I haven’t slept the night before and I am  a hot mess and too weak to do anything.

However I get myself together and self talk. I tell myself it’s just a state of mind.  The funny thing about me is when I can be active I have to tell myself to slow down and stop racing.  I am afraid of being manic and doing and doing even late at night and becoming sick.

I am going to close because it is late but I hope I have helped someone by sharing this.


Acceptance, What Does It Mean?

28 Mar

I saw a prompt called acceptance.  It’s funny, when I was a kid growing up. I never thought about it.  Everything was fine.  You made friends with your classmates.  It’s strange but I never thought of it as being accepted.

I guess I didn’t have a problem until I graduated from high school and went on to college which I quit and went back as an adult.  Who’s worried about being accepted then I had too much to do going to school and raising a child at the same time.

At first I wasn’t accepted by some because I was one of those girls who was Sandra Dee straight out of a Catholic high school and unprepared for life.  I soon learned as I grew up and became a little fast,  This was as a teenager not an adult with a child.


i made friends and sometimes not.  I had to learn though that you don’t have to give up your values or try to change to make  friends.  You are lucky if you have two  friends that accept you for yourself  and have the same values and goals as you.  Those are real friends.  I am kinda shy even now to make   friends because I have had bad experiences with people who were not true friends. .


2 Mar

Doubt:  I doubt myself when it comes to some things even little things I used to do.  I think the only way is to try to do them.  I doubt myself and it may be because I am putting to much on my plate.

I don’t like not being able to do anything for myself.  I have to stop doubting myself and do those things because I almost became incompetent letting others do the things I used to do.  I won’t doubt myself when I stop thinking that I can’t do somethings.  Also realize I am human when I put too much on my plate.

Another Lifestyle

14 Feb

I don’t think a person is vain or shallow because she takes care of herself.  I am a fine one to talk.  I finally went to a beauty shop and had my hair dyed.   I felt like a new person.  That’s what it’s about renewing oneself and making the best of oneself.

I haven’t been to the nail shop in about three months.  My toenails and fingernails are looking raggedy.  That’s the next thing I have to take care of.  Get a pedicure and manicure please.

I may visit the mall and shop for a couple of new pants and dress for the spring.  However I am taking my time because I can be a bit of a shopaholic. However I know that before the week is over I’ll be at my local drugstore for my stash.  My stash are the things I stock up on for the week.  Among these are cosmetics and fun things like magazines and CD’s.  This is a kind of renewal and a fun thing.  Well this may not seem important but I just wanted to share some tips with you.

Finding Your Place

14 Dec

I can’t say one place I lived since I may be a composite of all.  I sometimes think of the place I grew up in.  However I know that it is not the same and sometimes we think of the past better or worst.  I find myself dreaming about a place that doesn’t exist.

It is peaceful with close friends.  Then I think of all the crime and fear of trusting others. That place I long for in the past no longer exist.  I have to live now and not in the past.  Making the best of now and finding the good is the place I may make.  I have to find my place now.  I will enjoy and maybe make now the place I should be, whether it is to make it better somehow and enjoying that.



September Is…

20 Sep

Living Resiliently Blog


I can’t believe I almost forgot about this one!


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31 Jul

I admire the people who aren’t heard but are good citizens and make the country better by being just that.

I admire those silenced voices who struggle everyday with that awful illness of depression, put in a gloom but struggle to get out of bed in the morning.  Those who struggle just to do simple  task inn their household, who can’t explain why it’s such a struggle and that they may not seem to do as much, even some days they let the struggle get them and stay in bed.

I admire those who don’t give up but keep trying to cope and remain as active as they can be.  Those who do things for others and donate their time to help children, the poor, etc.  They do this just out of the goodness of their hearts and not to be recognized or praise.  May we always be thankful to you .Yes I admire those who suffer in silence and those unsung heroes in our communities.