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Shyness Gone

31 Oct

I did go to the event I posted about.  I paid 25 Dollars  for the ticket and it was well spent.  I came home with more than the ticket cost.

I  walked in and gave my ticket.  A lady gave me a beautiful bag.  I walked around to each table.  I collected information about health and beauty.  It was located outside in a shopping center,  one that is high ended or up whatever.  I saw this table with beautiful pink T shirts on it.  It had early breastfeeding cancer detection on it.  I was surprised that they said it was free.  I have worn it since with pride.

We were also given a bag with fun stuff in it, one was a beautiful scarf.  IT ended with a fashion show and dinner.

Now you can see why I go to this Caring For Me (that is what it is called) event every year.

 

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A Decent & Enjoyable Lifestyle

26 Sep

I want to go to an event this week, Thursday, that the hospital I got my breast cancer treatment.is giving. I bought my ticket and have a nice outfit to wear.  I have attended this event the last two years and it was a lot of fun.

There was nice ladies who were friendly and I enjoyed the program and delicious food. So what’s the problem..  All sorts of panic thoughts come to mind.  Will I be alright and enjoy this time?  Of course I will.  The problem is the last time I wanted to go to something I didn’t make it.  It was just a church festival but really wanted to go.  For some reason I didn’t make it.  I was tired and felt negative.

I wonder if I just let everything get me down and can’t be like I want to be.  Something holds me back.    Well I’ll just overcome this and be me again.  Thank you.

 

So Where Do I Go From Here

23 May

I have had my mamogram and results are cancer free.  I have listened to motivation and inspiration speakers until am blue.  I am stopping listening to how to live and realize I have to broaden my outlook and live.  I can do somethings I was reluctant to do and I mean just everyday housework.  I try now and realize I can.  What slows me down is arthiritis.  I won’t let that make me feel down but will keep on with my hobbies and feel good about myself.

I call my hobbies rituals because they are stress relievers. playing the keyboard, reading, and crafts, planners.  I love those.  I will dance even if it’s just around the house.  I have social anxiety about going to clubs because I didn’t like it after a while because things happen.  However I know that one day I’ll wake up and be ready to go maybe a sports bar or club whatever.  My social anxiety may be valid and not mental.  One of my neighbor’s son got killed trying to break up a fight and this has happened to many times.   However my instinct will tell be when it’s right.  I hope that this post will help others with issues.

 

Zip my Mouth Up.

25 Apr

viI will learn to zip my mouth rather than offend, not to offer advice when I know it,s just how I do things and may not be the right thing for someone else. aily Prompt: Zip  However when I feel the need to defend I will unzip.  I will express myself when I should and not to judge others.

However when someone offends me I will let them know.  If they choose to still offend and don,t zip it up I will not argue but know that this is not a friend that I need to associate with.

Depression Won’t Beat Me

9 Apr

I’ve been reading posts and articles about depression.  Yes I fight it and I won’t let it conquer me.  I will keep fighting it and keep going especially when I have the energy to     do things.     That’s when I know I am winning.  Yes there are bad days when I haven’t slept the night before and I am  a hot mess and too weak to do anything.

However I get myself together and self talk. I tell myself it’s just a state of mind.  The funny thing about me is when I can be active I have to tell myself to slow down and stop racing.  I am afraid of being manic and doing and doing even late at night and becoming sick.

I am going to close because it is late but I hope I have helped someone by sharing this.

Darkness

8 Jul

 

It hit me like a ton of bricks.  I can’t stand to get out of bed in the morning.  If only I could wake up full of energy, happy to start another day.  I pray that it will leave.  It’s like a demon from hell that wants to hold me down and does.

Sometimes the darkness leaves and I am happy and bubbly but afraid knowing it will come back  Is it that I am afraid to be.happy that I think I have to suffer?  I know it’s not so because God wants us to be happy .  I just don[t know how to stop these guilt filled thoughts and the hate which these thoughts are but they are not me.

You’re Not Looking

25 May

There’s a land that has flowers in the yards and well kept lawns.  Church bells ring with gratitude and blessings for the life the people may have.  There are blue birds and red birds in the yards of these people.  God sends the beauty to them and they appreciate them.

There is plenty of food.  You pass one street with lots of fast food places  Some of the people don’t stop there.  They go to grocery stores where there is plenty of fresh fruit and vegetables..

Just  join them and embrace them and the lifestyles    You will share in the blessings and the lifestyle.

 

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