This Can,t Be My Lifestyle

31 Aug

So,I put everything in order.  It takes all day.  The next day I am unable to remember  where I put it.  When my daughter saw this, she said (mom you hide things from yourself

I have fun shopping and am busy all da y I am so happy I can do this.  However at bedtime I am worn out.  The next day I am so achy and tired I can,t do a thing.  Is this old age or chronic fatigue from the cancer ?  I went through two surgeries and about 36 radiation treatments in 2014.  I am blessed that I am cancer free but not the same e as I was before.

I heard T D Jakes say stop crying and whining about how things used to be.  God is providing a better place for you  I agree and will embrace it and carry on my mission God has for me.

 

 

 

 

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I don,t know about this lifestyle. I try to exercise and eat right. I don,t always eat to lose weight and be healthy. Comfort foods feel me up but fruits and vegetables don,t. Sometimes I wonder if worry about health because I have health issues. Is this normal or old age?

14 Jun

 I thought I would keep my teeth all my life but a bridge fell,out when I bit something hard.  As a result I have three front teeth missing.  I,m getting dental implants.  Maybe before this is over I,ll have to use my life savings.  Thank God for that though.

Oh well I had to vent but it,s feeling young and a younger person is in me but I have to accept the lifestyle of the seasons of my life.

So Where Do I Go From Here

23 May

I have had my mamogram and results are cancer free.  I have listened to motivation and inspiration speakers until am blue.  I am stopping listening to how to live and realize I have to broaden my outlook and live.  I can do somethings I was reluctant to do and I mean just everyday housework.  I try now and realize I can.  What slows me down is arthiritis.  I won’t let that make me feel down but will keep on with my hobbies and feel good about myself.

I call my hobbies rituals because they are stress relievers. playing the keyboard, reading, and crafts, planners.  I love those.  I will dance even if it’s just around the house.  I have social anxiety about going to clubs because I didn’t like it after a while because things happen.  However I know that one day I’ll wake up and be ready to go maybe a sports bar or club whatever.  My social anxiety may be valid and not mental.  One of my neighbor’s son got killed trying to break up a fight and this has happened to many times.   However my instinct will tell be when it’s right.  I hope that this post will help others with issues.

 

Zip my Mouth Up.

25 Apr

viI will learn to zip my mouth rather than offend, not to offer advice when I know it,s just how I do things and may not be the right thing for someone else. aily Prompt: Zip  However when I feel the need to defend I will unzip.  I will express myself when I should and not to judge others.

However when someone offends me I will let them know.  If they choose to still offend and don,t zip it up I will not argue but know that this is not a friend that I need to associate with.

in need of distraction

21 Apr

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Disclaimer : I am not a medical professional. Do not follow my advice blindly. Always listen to your body [and your doctor] over me. I write from my personal experiences, not yours. 

Giving into a chronic pain flare* is the quickest way to escalate it. While it may seem impossible to get yourself out of bed [and the house], it’s usually exactly what your body needs. Filling our days with positive distractions can be as helpful, if not more, than taking a pill to mask those pain signals for a few hours.

Pictured above is a flowchart to utilize on the days when you just don’t want to do anything. Push yourself to get going, but listen to your body and give it a rest when it needs one. Know your limitations, but don’t let them keep you from trying new experiences.

I’ll confess, I push it too far some days, but…

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Depression Won’t Beat Me

9 Apr

I’ve been reading posts and articles about depression.  Yes I fight it and I won’t let it conquer me.  I will keep fighting it and keep going especially when I have the energy to     do things.     That’s when I know I am winning.  Yes there are bad days when I haven’t slept the night before and I am  a hot mess and too weak to do anything.

However I get myself together and self talk. I tell myself it’s just a state of mind.  The funny thing about me is when I can be active I have to tell myself to slow down and stop racing.  I am afraid of being manic and doing and doing even late at night and becoming sick.

I am going to close because it is late but I hope I have helped someone by sharing this.

Acceptance, What Does It Mean?

28 Mar

I saw a prompt called acceptance.  It’s funny, when I was a kid growing up. I never thought about it.  Everything was fine.  You made friends with your classmates.  It’s strange but I never thought of it as being accepted.

I guess I didn’t have a problem until I graduated from high school and went on to college which I quit and went back as an adult.  Who’s worried about being accepted then I had too much to do going to school and raising a child at the same time.

At first I wasn’t accepted by some because I was one of those girls who was Sandra Dee straight out of a Catholic high school and unprepared for life.  I soon learned as I grew up and became a little fast,  This was as a teenager not an adult with a child.

 

i made friends and sometimes not.  I had to learn though that you don’t have to give up your values or try to change to make  friends.  You are lucky if you have two  friends that accept you for yourself  and have the same values and goals as you.  Those are real friends.  I am kinda shy even now to make   friends because I have had bad experiences with people who were not true friends. .